The Girl I Used To See



This is my place to heal
My place to share, 
how truly I feel
I'm  here to talk about 
The girl I used to see
The girl no one would believe

Her name was Lora C. Revilo
 From many many years ago
I tried to help her when I could
She was lost, scared, and misunderstood

No one knew how truly sad she was
She was known for being lots of fun 
And just a little bit crazy...because
She was told to tell no one

Everyday is a battle
A battle within
Will I choose to lose
Or will I choose to win

I choose to win, she would say
And she chose to win every day.

The girl no one would believe
The girl I used to see

I've come a long ways 
from the girl I used to see
The girl with an abusive 
fam i ly
Yes it is true
It was not all the time
But when it was
It was a crime

How could he grab her by the hair 
and throw her around
Without a care?

And if she did 
She'd fall to the ground
He would start to kick her in the side
And she learned to make no sound
There was nowhere to hide

And if she did scream
It would get worse
And it would seem 
She had a curse

What was this curse 
that she had?
Why the curse of an 
abusive dad

Yet it did not happen all the time
But when it did
It was a crime

Oh the threats that were made
Throughout the years
As he lived a deceitful charade
While she shed many a tears

I'd beat you till you were black and blue
What happens in the home
Stays in the home
I'll make sure no one will recognize you
And this is when she felt all alone

Then in the garage he took her one day
And threatened to kill her with her life
For if your mother left me, he'd say
If you said anything at all to my wife
If you say anything to anyone
About the things I have done
I'd not care if dead you'd be
So,
How would you like to call that man family?

Then he went on to say

In such disarray 

Without her I'd have nothing,  you see

As he took a hammer

And smashed a radio
In an aggressive manner
There was nowhere to go

Her heart it was breaking
Her head it was shaking
Over again,  from side to side
And to me she continually cried
As he continually lied
To hide the terrible deeds he had done
And still she could tell no one

I am so tired of living this lie
That my family thinks he is okay
Yet, How fair is it to the family
Who just can't believe what happened to me

Stay tuned for MOORE to come
about the girl I used to see
Even though she felt she had no one
And that no one would believe

For she was the girl no one would believe
The girl I used to see

Sincerely

Lora C. Revilo to you
Carol Louise Moore to me
With many faces to see
Where I try so hard to be HAPPY

Music Teacher at cmoorekidsongs on YouTube, Blogger Facebook,  and Instagram
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